Today's Entry

What is the course of a day? That day was a special one, exactly a year ago, in an autumn day, suddenly after years of no words from you, we finally met again. Knowing is a process, it is an undying process, just as life it self. It is a process that requires time, and in the end, even in a life time, there would be somethings we missed out. Even so, it is not a scary thing, since it is a process of togetherness.

Through the time, we have laughs, we have tears, we have joy, we have sad moment, we have had mistakes, we have tried to fix them, we love the time we shared together, we care upon each other, we do have several misunderstandings of how we see life, of how things are different in our heads and ways. Schatz, they were all the above mentioned, and it is a ride of life, we have low and high points. Most of it though were good times that we shared, we just need to remember. You with your charming smile that melts my heart, me with my funny look that makes you laugh.

Last night, I opened up our diary of this journey and see the many wonderful things that we have, things that we need to be grateful of. Pictures that reminded me, how lucky we are to have each other. Happiness never hurts anyone. Write what makes us happy, so that it'll emanate also happiness from it. We are both looking for happiness, we did have them, and yet we yearn for more.

My dear Earth, I have circled as your satellite throughout the years. Our souls are yearning to meet; we deal this with different ways, we did the compromises. I understand. I feel much better during this difficult time that we faced, I now can think clearer. We are in the road of finding, we are ready for love, we just need to retrace a bit. Just relax there, while you wait for my coming home, my Offshore. Let's be happy... :)

Aidil Fitr

And so I've seen the opening of that wonderful day: Aidil Fitr.

I thank God for this whole Ramadhan, He gives me strength better than I used to. And being in this condition, I can say that the world around me will about to change soon. But I do not have the slightest fear, because I know that I have a strong support system back home; you.

You, the person who I missed most...
You, who always sits there, listening my stories from time to time...
You, who learns to appreciate me as your future partner..
Starting to prioritize who and what comes first: sharing and caring

Have a great day with your family out there, Schatz...

Loving you from time to time...
Si miumiu....

A glimpse of Ratmakan

Thank you for accompanying me in going there and writing this thesis, Schatz..

mmuaaach... :*

5. Life is too short to spend over arguments

In this life, I know who I want; YOU

I don't want to regret by making the biggest mistake in my life by letting arguments win over us.

My answer is the same, YES, I will and want to spend the rest of my life time with you.

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i finally find someone

I posted this answer days ago.. I just forget that we have this one blog to fill our beautiful life together...

Living by yourself for so long does make a woman to forget that essentially we are a creature of incompleteness except we have a partner to share it with.

I've seen the world: well at least half part of it - Asia, Europe and North America,

I do what I wanted to do - finishing my education abroad,

and the last - most important step is I met the special person I want to spend the rest of my life with.

I got to know this person again on the internet! Who would've guess that after this long separation we could still remember each other. That we would've long to meet so greatly...

And here's the answer of the proposal that I made last night for the person I really miss and love so much...

Thanks for make me fly to the moon

Actually, this is just a repost from erepublik game. But, just for sure, I've made this one not for only for that game, but to show you how I feel about u, who always support me in every of my step in this live. Thanks for that, Miuw-miuw, you always be my moon... :)

This one what I've wrote in the erepublic article=
I first meet this girl in elementary school, and distance made us no contact for almost 20 years. But thanks for the miracle, you have found me one day in internet. The story begin when I ask you to join this erepublik, and through this game we can be a real partner, you always support my step everywhere, begin from no one and learn to be some one. Thanks for that, Babe......

In the middle of the night I made this video, special for you, the moon has been one of my muse. Even in a distance from Indonesia to Germany, I can always see your beautiful smile there, when I look into the moon.

Building a Foundation

When a building is depending on its foundation, our life's strength come from our heart. There even though we don't really know where it lays in our body, we know that it is the 'soul' that on which our life is pulsating. That particular night while taking pictures of old buildings in my hometown, I realize where my soul belong to. Architecture was my life and stay as an architect wouldn't be a heavy job for me. There lays my soul of life and there stand also a soul I missed much lately. It may have been only several days, and the road ahead is still far. As the train moving forward needs a source of fuel, I'll be in need of your supports.



Time will tell just how much this all will worth and I do believe that you are right, we should take advantage of our 'momentum' to take a lead in our togetherness. We were never been too much in the serious line when in comes to relationship, but I feel that once we are together, those troubles seem to melt away and I learn to trust you. We both learn to care each other and no longer busy with our own world. We include each of our plans in the long run and it was fun to discuss them with you. Opportunities are endless, dreams are reachable and we are a good team.

To build a strong building that stands in decades it needs calculation and good components. As we put it, human relationship is based on 'trust'. And to gain this we should focus on communication. At first I wasn't really keen on having to consume much of my time in it, but know I can see your point. Throughout these months, there may have been misunderstanding, white lies, or 'escaping the truth mode' that extensively hit us. Although they are there, this doesn't stop you to keep on asking and talking to me on what the problems were.

Now, looking back and looking forward, I can only see 'us'. Shall it stays that way, dearest one...

Life is like a train

You know that our life is like a train? We have to go forward, as the train that always goes forward in its rail. (i almost forgot that there is also one trip from Semarang to Bandung that i get into the train and it go backward, reverse in about one hour, and sure it make me feel sick!)This few months I have spend my life in several trip with this thing, so it is like I’m getting familiar being inside this thing. GO to rail station, jump inside, and take my seat. Sometimes, just sometimes, the aroma of it can smell bad (when we sat in the front line, usually because of its broken door that cannot be shut properly, yaks!) So with life, sometimes, life is sucks, and you can feel the bad aroma from the front door. But most of it, I enjoy my trip, just like I enjoy my life, being me and myself. Being with you, together, just the two of us.... (And of course I’m enjoying the moment when you sleep on my arm in that one trip, I miss that moment!).

If you don’t go to the train station at the right time, you will miss it, and so with the momentum of life, the opportunity, if we don’t do it at the right time, so it will go away. The point here is about “momentum”, opportunity that we got here, that should be spend in the right way. Everything, from your studies to my works, let it go smoothly and straight into a good direction. Let’s stay focused, both of us, for our next journey. Just like a train...

Steps.. one by one

I like my friend's metaphor in describing their relationship situation. It's like we are heading to a place together, yet I let you wait in the platform saying,

"Wait there, I'll buy the ticket so that we could sit together in the train."


Our live has been too long passing on paralel tracks, that we didn't notice aside of that track. We never see along the view of our tracks that we never had the chance to meet nor even toknow the existence of the other. Now that our hopes have been realised, we see each other in a better perspectives, a whole complete human being, which is never perfect, though it doesn't make me love you less. It's even made me to love you even more, to care for each details of our life together more and to feel our breath synchronised in our Universe.



We are in a crossing that let us seeing things together, we have had similiar likeness and dislikes so our way of seeing is not contradictory. You complete me in a way that I couldn't understand. Yet it makes a lot of sense. To me, this life is whole again, the colours are in range of hues that are very pretty just like that evening, when I stopped at Koeln train station. Captivated by the context of our situation in above mentioned metaphor and sky colours that evening, made me realise that nature has provided me signs that in one point I would meet you, My Earth... And here we are at this junction, I hope you enjoy this as much as I do.

dreams

Today, even if many would say it's an important day, I would say no, I was giving my self the best gift a person can give to herself. I give my self the best love to nurture my thirsty soul. You, have always been there, but I never knew that we were somehow linked, you made my life seems to be complete. All of this time, I was wandering, when my age comes and get me, who will I spend it with? I really wish, that you will share these moments together.

I am sad actually that I don't spend my day with the people who I love most. That's why I made a pact to my self, to spend the day in the city, hunting pictures of old houses from Shanghai 100 years ago. This is an action to celebrate my day, to remind me how blessed I am to have you and every thing I have now.

We may not be together in real time right now, but I can sense your warmth and also your care, they are real, even if you said you still half believe that we found each other, I also feel the same. You may not saying things out loud, but I know you have fear of what the days to come held for us, as I do too. However, you are doing a better job by keeping me in track with our course of life, months counted as days, days traveled as hours, and each time doubts came, you'll always securing our hopes and dreams by making us believe of the word 'us'.


You are so far my greatest birthday gift I've got.
Let that be the case, I'll stay and shine as your star,
giving you the beautiful night-scape from the vast
dark blue sky up here.
I do hope I were there tonight, and we'd celebrate this day together, with a long talk n dinner, you and I hand in hand under the big dark sky dancing around in the light of candles.
Big hugs and kisses, mein Schaaaatz... You are my love, dear sweet soul, I present to you the sunset from Shanghai, so it warms your night there...

Just A little Note from me...

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